TRUSTFELL NOTES
Isaac's room is ridiculously neat - you'll notice that there's nothing out of place and nothing looks cluttered. You can find most of his belongings in his trunk, though all the items he wanted to keep are in the closet. There are some notes laid out on his desk as well, addressed to the other people here (and one other person).
Those might not be the first things you see though, since there are the designs painted on two of the walls. You'll find yourself staring at a map of Amestris with certain cities labeled. Ishval is circled in red. Some of them have paper duct-taped nearby with Isaac's handwriting, written in code of course.
The second wall has a map of Central City with a familiar alchemical array painted through it in red. Three specific points are marked on this map and once again there's duct tape and paper containing notes on whatever it is this one's supposed to represent.
Inside the desk you can find an alarming amount of notes - they're written in Amestrian and coded in a cipher that involves numbers, letters, and mathematical equations. If you're able to figure out the cipher you're certainly welcome to read them! Otherwise these are coded to look like research notes on his alchemy.
Those might not be the first things you see though, since there are the designs painted on two of the walls. You'll find yourself staring at a map of Amestris with certain cities labeled. Ishval is circled in red. Some of them have paper duct-taped nearby with Isaac's handwriting, written in code of course.
The second wall has a map of Central City with a familiar alchemical array painted through it in red. Three specific points are marked on this map and once again there's duct tape and paper containing notes on whatever it is this one's supposed to represent.
Inside the desk you can find an alarming amount of notes - they're written in Amestrian and coded in a cipher that involves numbers, letters, and mathematical equations. If you're able to figure out the cipher you're certainly welcome to read them! Otherwise these are coded to look like research notes on his alchemy.

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This girl's a damn mess. She apparently liquefied her boyfriend and put him in some other guy's body. She's also really fond of romance and trying to set people up to find their true love or whatever. This isn't the time or the place, but she seems completely unconcerned with the game.
Mallick was going to be executed for Maizono's murder and she kept on insisting that Maizono was an opportunity. Mallick didn't see it that way. He was really bothered by the fact that he killed her and Aligula wouldn't shut up for five goddamn seconds. Yeah, it was pretty fucking obvious why he killed her. He didn't want her to turn on anyone else and what the hell would anyone else do in that situation? Better for her to die than to kill someone else.
Aligula needs to shut the hell up. It's best for everyone if she does.
WEEK 2
...I guess she isn't that bad. She doesn't seem to really get what's appropriate to say and what isn't, but she's making an effort to keep her mouth shut about sacrifices and opportunities.
She's fine to talk to, honestly. I wouldn't call her a friend but she's not all that bad. She was pretty merciless with Rideaux during the trial, but I think she kept what I said in mind. She didn't call it an opportunity even after Rideaux did. So there's that, I guess.
WEEK 3
She's still crazy, but I'm okay talking with her. She was really upset by Chitoge's death, but... it was kind of nice to see her upset by something? That sounds fucked up. I kinda like spending time with her though, even though I'm definitely not getting anywhere near her fashion show.
WEEK 4
Aligula didn't get why a lot of people dying at once would be a bad thing. I'm not sure I explained it very well, but at least she understands that people dying is difficult for a lot of us. She took Chitoge's death pretty hard so I think she's going to try to remember that in the future.
She was really fond of Brady and he died. I feel kinda bad for her, but she'll probably be okay.
WEEK 7
I don't really want anyone here to die, do I? Sorry, Aligula.
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Angel's got a lot of baggage with her dad. There's probably a lot of issues there and I have no idea what to do with any of it. It's probably best if I don't have to deal with it. I really do like Angel though... which isn't a good thing here.
I don't want to kill anyone and I especially don't want to kill her. But Maizono wasn't as nice and sweet as I thought she was. What if Angel's the same way? What if I've been believing everything she's saying and she's lying to my face? I can't tell. I don't know what to think.
WEEK 2
I don't want to believe that Angel would stab any of us in the back. I really don't. She's probably my favorite person here. She's also tiny; if she wanted to kill someone, she'd have to poison them. She probably knows how to do that, though. Her dad's completely crazy.
I can't trust her though, not completely. I can't trust anyone.
WEEK 3
She got a military file from the machine. It says that I deserted the military in 1908 after the Ishval War. But that can't be right, why the hell would I do something like that?
She doesn't need to see me freak out about all this shit, so I'll just keep it quiet. I don't want any of them knowing how badly this is fucking me up.
WEEK 4
I taught her how to swim. I really like Angel. I'm not sure if I should. Trusting anyone is a bad idea here, but liking people... That's okay, isn't it?
WEEK 6
Apparently dating Chitoge now, even though Chitoge's dead. This seems like a bad idea. She's doing okay though. I think she's worked out a lot of her issues involving her dad. She'll probably be fine.
WEEK 7
I really feel bad about Angel. I hope that whatever Juri does to all of them isn't painful.
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I don't know much about him. He seems alright, I guess. It's kind of hard to tell with people here.
WEEK 3
He got a shark from the vending machine. A shark. Apparently his name's Sharpedo and he's a water and dark type who is good against ghosts. I feel like I learned everything and nothing about Pokemon from that conversation. Archie also taught me about coconuts, so there's that.
...And then he killed Flemming, because Flemming attacked him first. What the hell else was Archie supposed to do? Still... I don't feel as bad about this as I did Mallick. Is it because I liked Maizono a lot? It is because I'm getting used to this? I don't know.
I wish I could've gotten to know Archie better. I never got to ask him about his title.
WEEK 4
Sharpedo and Muk were with Brady, but he died. I feel bad for these Pokemon...
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He seems like a leader-type. Either that's going to get him killed or he's going to try to lead us and I'm not really sure how much I like that idea. He's okay and I've got nothing against him, but getting Ferid and Aligula to listen? Yeah right.
WEEK 2
Despite coming off as the leader type, he hasn't really done anything to try to organize us. Is it better that we're all doing our own thing? Probably. What if the leader died? That'd screw us all up, I think.
Aymeric was really upset about Nephenee's death. I get it, it hit everyone hard, but to be honest... I think I was more fucked up by Rideaux.
WEEK 7
Sacrifices have to be made. I chose him because I know he'll fight back. I won't hesitate then.
Maybe I won't win. Maybe that'd be for the best.
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A literal giant. How is he that tall? Armstong isn't that tall. Height aside, he's kind of... I don't know how to describe it. He's not boring, exactly, but he's kind of quiet, I guess. I doubt he's going to be in any danger.
WEEK 4
He decided he wanted a way out of the game and asked Juri to kill him. I think I should find that upsetting or sad or... something. But I don't. I don't feel anything at all. Is it because I didn't know AZ all that well? Is it because something in my memories has just hardened me that much over the years? I don't know. I don't want to know.
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An okay kid, though he seemed so carefree before the murder. I wonder if he'll be alright now. I kinda doubt it. He worked some things out during the trial, so that's pretty nice. He also got my uniform out of the vending machine, so that was great.
WEEK 3
He actually punched Terumi after Chitoge's death. I've gotta hand it to him, he's got guts. Still, I don't think he should pick a fight with Terumi of all people. He's going to need to be careful with his temper.
(Is it strange that I wasn't as fucked up by Chitoge's death? I don't know.)
WEEK 4
Brady was killed by Walter. He had already poisoned Mack. Did he have to kill Brady too? Is it terrible to wish that Brady had lived, even if Mack had to die? I don't know. I don't really care either. I liked Brady.
Stop getting attached, dammit.
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I haven't spoken to her outside of the trial, but she tried really hard to get everyone to uh... to strip. To see if there were any defensive wounds. It was a pretty good idea, but... wow. She was pretty upset at the end of the trial.
WEEK 3
She tried to poison the Adjudicator. He killed her because she broke rule 5. I guess it's good to know that poison counts under that rule and that it can't kill him. I should feel worse about her death. I really should. She was just a kid and she chose to do this because she thought it'd help, but...
I don't think the Adjudicator was wrong to kill her. She tried to kill him. What else was he supposed to do in a situation like that? If he left her alive, she'd just try again. Now we all know that lashing out at him like that will kill us. So... So he's effectively shut us all down and made an example of her. I can't argue with that at all. I should hate it more than I do but right now I just feel numb.
The one good thing I can say about this is that Archie tried to poison the Adjudicator during his execution. Chitoge gave us some kind of hope, even if she was stupid to go about it the way she did. I guess I'm not really mad at her for it, but that's because I didn't know her very well.
WEEK 6
She somehow came back to life, only for the Adjudicator to kill her again. I didn't feel anything about any of that. I probably should have. Maybe it's because I wasn't attached to Chitoge when she died, but hearing that any of the others would be willing to trade their lives for hers... is it wrong to be angry about that? She took her chances against the Adjudicator and she died for it. Why should someone else take her place in death?
The dead should stay dead. But I guess if they still exist somewhere then... I don't really know what to make of it.
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He explained some things about his world to me and it sounds kinda interesting. Mostly he's good for making some of the best food I've ever had. Even though I doubt he'd kill anyone, I still can't trust his cooking when I don't see him fixing it. I was never this paranoid, but I guess it's kind of useful here.
WEEK 3
He's a Pokemon trainer and he's got a fish named Stunfisk. It's pretty interesting and while it's also kind of creepy, the fish is nice. He doesn't need water to live either which is really confusing.
Cilan got really upset about the possibility of Sharpedo being executed with Archie. I guess I get why, but Cilan turned that anger on Robert just because he asked about it. Robert was right to ask but then he started acting like a goddamn child, so it's not like I was going to defend him.
WEEK 6
His world sounds pretty crazy. Who would let a kid go off on an adventure with Pokemon like Sharpedo and Muk? It just seems like a really bad idea.
WEEK 7
What happens to a Pokemon if it's stuck in a Pokeball...? I don't want to know. Cilan is going to die and hopefully the Pokemon will be okay. Or maybe it'd be better if they died...? I don't know.
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Ferid's a piece of work. Apparently he's a couple thousand years old or something, which makes him dangerous by default. He initially freaked me out because he touched me and I am absolutely not here for that.
But then he ended up being kind of nice to talk to? I told him more than I should. But talking about Ishval isn't something I can do with most of the people here. I don't care if Ferid hates me for it, though he didn't seem to. I don't really know what to make of it.
He's pretty annoying and over-the-top... but I guess Ferid isn't completely unbearable.
WEEK 2
I still don't trust him, but he's okay to talk to. I'm trying to avoid telling him anything else, but for some reason he's easy to talk to. He sounds kind of familiar, somehow...
He taught me how to dance. That was kind of awkward.
WEEK 3
...Alright, so maybe he's more than okay to talk to. He wouldn't be my first pick out of everyone here, but there's something sort of familiar about him. I think it might be his voice? Anyway, he's calming to talk to and I guess I should be careful what I say, because he's easy to discuss things with. Still, he's definitely not trustworthy. No one here is.
WEEK 4
Apparently he got it in his head that just because Kimblee's important to me, I like him? I don't. That's stupid.
(But what if Kimblee really didn't feel anything about what he did for me? What if he doesn't remember? It's been seven years... what if I didn't seek him out after the war? I don't remember enough. Why is this bothering me so much?)
WEEK 5
...He might be right about Kimblee.
WEEK 6
Okay, he's definitely right about Kimblee.
WEEK 7
I didn't want to kill him, but he has to die too. Sorry, Ferid.
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A green lady who really doesn't like being reminded of that. Fern's pretty good to talk to. She's trying to keep her spirits up as much as she possibly can and that's something worth admiring. I don't know how much I can trust her, but she doesn't seem like the sort who would kill anyone.
But then again, appearances can be deceiving.
WEEK 2
She's really worried about the kids here. I think it's partially because she can't worry about her own son here. Well, she can, she just can't do anything about him. I think her heart's in the right place, at least.
WEEK 3
Fern tried to fight the Adjudicator after Chitoge's death. I get that she was angry but if the Adjudicator hadn't given her permission to hit him, she would have died. She didn't seem to care. That sort of attitude is going to get her killed someday. She really needs to value her life more; she's important here.
WEEK 4
She ended up in a hospital, but it's definitely not a legitimate one. Her son's still there. I don't know how she's managing to stay sane here.
During the trial she jumped in front of Katniss when Walter tried to stab her. She'll probably be okay though. It takes guts to do something like that, but I'm worried she'll get herself killed.
(I probably shouldn't be worried...)
WEEK 6
I like Fern a lot, but Fern needs to stop being stupid. Jumping in the way of a knife is one thing, because you can't really stop yourself in the moment. I get that. Deciding to sacrifice your life for someone who already tried to kill the Adjudicator? That's just dumb. Chitoge got the punishment she deserved before. Cheating death (or whatever it was she did) doesn't automatically mean that she gets a second chance. The Adjudicator still runs things here. If he says she needs to die again, then she needs to die again. That's all there is to it.
WEEK 7
Her kid's disease sounds really fucked up. If she's got it, then...
Well, it doesn't matter. She's going to die along with the rest of them. I can't feel guilty about it or I'll hesitate.
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Apparently he'd be perfectly fine with travelling to other worlds in order to meet girls. His priorities are screwed up, but he seems to be alright otherwise. He's a soldier, but he was brought here on his first day. I kind of want to tell him about how terrible it is... but I don't know if I really want to make him nervous about what he's going back to.
If he lives through this, anyway. Maizono could have targeted him. He could have died instead of Mallick. It's weird to think about.
WEEK 2
He seems to have settled down a little, which is good. He comes off as laid-back a lot of the time, but I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing.
WEEK 3
Well, maybe I was wrong about him settling down. He's still himself, but he's pretty good at knowing when to cool down on the flirting front. I kinda told him way more than I should have about Ishval, but I don't think that's anything to worry too much about. Out of everyone here, I think Inigo would get it the best.
It's really weird to think that he's a soldier at such a young age. I feel like he should probably be more mature, but with everything he's seen he's probably really fucked up. Maybe it's impressive that he's holding it together as well as he is.
WEEK 4
I think I'm telling him too much. He's a kid, I shouldn't burden him with this. But he's also a soldier and I think if anyone can understand, it's him.
He was really fucked up by Brady's death. Also his dad apparently rips peoples' thumbs off? So that's... something.
WEEK 6
No one died this week, but for a moment I thought Inigo had. That would've fucked me up, I think.
WEEK 7
I'm so sorry, Inigo.
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She seems nice enough. She's very, very dedicated to be a pacifist. When it came out that Mallick had killed Maizono, she wanted to lock Mallick up somewhere. That sort of mindset is going to be dangerous here. She'll probably die. I don't want her to die any more than anyone here, but pacifism isn't going to save anyone. It'll just create more problems.
WEEK 3
I started to tell her about alchemy, but I ended up lying. How the hell am I supposed to explain my alchemy to the people here? I never wanted to kill anyone, I just wanted to see what I could do with it.
She requested a pool from the Adjudicator. I'd like it if we got one, but I doubt he'll follow through.
WEEK 4
Never mind, we have a pool. Thanks, Jean.
WEEK 5
We talked a bit about morality and all that. It was interesting. I'm not sure I should be having in-depth conversations like that with people here. That's trusting them too much, isn't it?
WEEK 6
Jean lets emotions rule instead of logic. I guess it's a valid way to live, but she's completely in the wrong here. Arguing with the Adjudicator isn't going to get her anywhere. Trying to get him to see emotional reason isn't going to work. Believing that judges shouldn't be objective is just stupid. I've got to agree with Ferid, Aligula, and Terumi on this one. But I didn't want to get involved in that argument.
WEEK 7
Sacrifices have to be made. I know that. So why is this so difficult?
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Katniss was the first person to find out about my real occupation and she's the reason why I don't talk about it much. Apparently soldiers are pretty awful people in her world and she immediately decided she didn't like me because of that.
During the trial she was making everything about herself. She was suffering more than Walter and she had more reason to hate the Adjudicator... things like that. It was stupid. Does she really think that this is something that can be compared? We're all eager to go home. That sort of behavior's just going to piss someone off, and she might not be lucky enough to get out of it alive.
WEEK 2
We had a really awkward conversation after the trial. She was pissed at Rideaux for what he did and yeah, I get that. I'm mad at him too. Still... something about this is bugging me and I have no idea what it is.
Aligula said that if anyone was likely to kill, it'd be Katniss. I absolutely agree with her.
WEEK 3
I was going to get some notes from Rideaux's room when I ran into Katniss. She started crying about her sister and I was definitely out of my element. I don't know how to help people like that, especially not ones I'm not very familiar with. I feel sort of bad for her. Whatever she's going through is obviously rough.
At the same time, I don't really know what to make of it, so I'm just going to pretend that didn't happen.
WEEK 4
She got really riled up during the trial and went after Walter. She punched him, he tried to stab her. I'm glad she hit him.
WEEK 6
Katniss was going to shoot the Adjudicator, but she was talked down from it. I'm kind of surprised she listened to the others. She even said that they were her friends. That's... I don't know what to think about that.
It sounds like she was in a really shitty situation before being pulled here. Even so... I think she'll kill someone. I don't want to get too attached.
WEEK 7
I've turned into the person she thought I was. It's kind of funny when I look at it like that.
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I don't know much about her. She's kind of quiet and observant. She seems to keep her cool under pressure, but it's kind of creepy how calmly she handled the trial.
WEEK 2
She always seems bothered when I ask her how she's doing. I don't think many people ask because she always seems to be just fine. I guess it's something to keep in mind.
WEEK 3
Kyouko told me about her memories involving Maizono. Apparently Maizono pulled the same thing back in Kyouko's killing game as she did here. I can't believe Maizono would try to kill someone twice... But I guess it doesn't matter whether she remembered the first attempt or not.
As for Kyouko... Is it weird to hope that one of these days she'll tell me if something's wrong? I think it probably is.
WEEK 4
Kyouko admitted that things were pretty difficult for everyone, including herself. I'm glad she knows that I'll pester her about it until she talks, at least.
...Should I be doing that? Getting close is just going to fuck me up. I know that, but...
WEEK 5
She shouldn't have seen that. I need to be careful. I can't let myself break in front of anyone else.
WEEK 7
I should kill her. If I kill her and Naoto, there's a higher chance of getting away with it. I know that. But I don't think I can bring myself to do it. If I slip up for even a moment, that's going to ruin everything. If I can't kill her, then I'll have to go for someone else. Aymeric, maybe...?
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I like him, he's got a pretty great sense of humor. I don't trust him, but that goes without saying.
WEEK 2
We talked a lot about alchemy and the type of magical science he uses in his world. Sfeers sound really interesting. I wish I could see them in action. Luca says he can't use them though, so I'll try to be a bit more sensitive about that.
...I don't think he'll be a threat, but I can't let my guard down for anyone.
WEEK 3
He's really good at chess. I've ever met anyone who's that good. Luca beat me three times and asked about the scar on my back since I lost the last game and... well, I told him. It feels like there's not much of a point in keeping it from him. I guess I'm just really fucked up by all of this? I don't know.
WEEK 4
I kind of accidentally told him about Kimblee and now he's also got the wrong idea. Why does everyone think I'm interested in him!?
WEEK 6
He was trying to make plants grow with his array. He knows so much about it and yet can't use it... that really is depressing. I feel bad for him. I hope he's able to use it at some point.
WEEK 7
We didn't get to clear up how awkward things are. Maybe that'll make this easier.
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She's kind of cold and her title's "Detached" so it's not surprising that she was the first person to assume the worst about Maizono's intentions. I was kind of irritated about that at first, but that's the only thing that makes sense, so it's not really Mahiru's fault. It's a good thing she brought it up. I never would have assumed Maizono would want to kill someone.
WEEK 2
She's been keeping track of the items in the infirmary and storage room too, I think. She wanted to come up with a way to monitor who was using the items in the infirmary. It's kind of suspicious, even if I don't want to believe she'd kill anyone.
WEEK 3
Mahiru got really enthusiastic during the trial. It was pretty creepy, honestly. I don't know what to make of it.
WEEK 5
She's going to teach me how to use a sword. It isn't really necessary and it's not like I'll use one when I get home... but there's not much to do here and this is a good way to distract myself.
WEEK 6
She taught me how to use a sword. It's still a bit tricky, but I think I can manage it with enough practice.
WEEK 7
I don't want Mahiru to die either. I'm sorry.
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The first to murder someone, but it wasn't because he chose someone and killed them. It just sort of... happened. He killed Maizono because she lured him out of his room and tried to kill him. What the hell else was he going to do? Let her live? No one would have believed him about what happened. As callous as it is to say it, it was for the best that Maizono died.
(It's disgusting admitting that.)
Mallick shouldn't have died, but these are the rules of the game we're playing. I'm not sorry about punching him for what he said (alchemy is NOT magic) but... I don't know. This is confusing and terrible. I'm sorry Mallick had to die, but I'm not sorry I voted for him.
Now we know the rules. Now the real game begins.
WEEK 2
...The doors were open. Mallick was right. I don't want to think about it.
WEEK 3
Right again. Even if we're not playing the game he was, we are playing something similar.
They're not sacrifices or opportunities, but I am glad we've got some new rooms.
WEEK 4
There isn't really a point in updating this anymore. Mallick was right and we're going to keep getting new places to go after someone takes initiative. Aligula said maybe it'd be good if a lot of people died at once. Maybe we'd get out of here faster. The idea's disgusting, but... what if she's right?
WEEK 6
If Chitoge's able to deliver the notes I wrote, Mallick will get one. I didn't really need to tell him about what Terumi said, but a world where both alchemy and magic exist is kind of baffling.
...I guess I really am sorry about punching him over something like that. It seems really stupid looking back on it.
WEEK 7
He was right this whole time. Sacrifices have to be made.
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I don't know anything about her other than that she showed up in a swimsuit for some reason. I should talk to her at some point.
WEEK 2
Mack's from the same world as Brady. Their memories aren't matching up though and she's really bothered by it. I guess I would be too, but it seems like a bit much to worry about some kind of movie instead of everything that's going on here.
WEEK 4
She was poisoned by Walter and died. Brady was killed too. I didn't get to know Mack very well. If only she had died, I think I would've been okay. How fucked up is that? She was an innocent kid who didn't deserve what happened to her... but I knew from the beginning that trusting food from anyone was a stupid idea. She should have thought about that.
...Sacrifices have to be made for us to keep moving forward.
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Mozu's cute and she's definitely the youngest here. She's just a kid. Why was she brought here? I don't want to see anything happen to her... but as Maizono's proven, I can't trust anyone here.
WEEK 2
She made rice balls for the trial. They weren't poisoned but I still couldn't trust them. When did I get this paranoid?
WEEK 4
I was right not to trust anyone's cooking, but I kinda doubt Mozu would ever poison anyone...
WEEK 5
Yang killed Mozu, but Mozu killed Yang in self-defense. They both died before the trial. Juri revived Yang to kill her in retaliation since she struck first. Mozu didn't deserve this.
I should feel more about this, but I don't. I think I've accepted that we're all going to die here.
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I don't know much about her, but she's another detective-type who seems to have her shit together. She seems less stoic than Kyouko though.
WEEK 2
She's definitely less stoic than Kyouko. She also calls me "McDougalsan" for some reason? I should talk to her about more than just strategy, but I'm a bit worried about getting attached to the people here. Look how well that's worked for me so far.
WEEK 3
Naoto found a compact in the game room and has been working really hard to piece together the mysteries of this place. I kind of admire her work ethic, but I'm not sure how she can keep going like that without burning herself out.
WEEK 6
She proposed a plan to try to keep in contact with Chitoge and the rest of the dead. This would've been a better idea if the Adjudicator hadn't been in the room. It's not going to work. And maybe it's for the best that it won't work.
WEEK 7
Naoto's going to die. I know I should feel more guilty about that, but I don't. If she dies, I stand a better chance of getting away with this. That's what I need.
If only things didn't have to end like this.
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WEEK 2
Apparently I was wrong, because from the sound of it she put up a hell of a fight against Rideaux. He still killed her. I know I should be more upset about her death because she didn't deserve it and Rideaux called her an opportunity, but...
I don't know. This whole thing has fucked me up even harder than the first time. Somehow.
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I like Rideaux. We talked about alchemy and he seems genuinely interested in it. Something about him feels kind of familiar... but I can't really place it.
He's kind of an asshole though, and I wouldn't be surprised if he killed someone because we all trust him as the only doctor here. I'll be careful about that if I get sick. He might not be able to physically overpower me, but he could probably poison me about three hundred different ways.
...I really hope he doesn't kill anyone though. I like him.WEEK 2
Goddammit. He killed Nephenee. He wanted to get out of here and the "bonus" this week was too good for him to pass up. He wouldn't have to rely on replacement organs anymore. He called her an opportunity. He fought to the very end and even then he tried to take the Adjudicator out.
But it ended the same way as last time. The Adjudicator took his soul.
I don't understand why this is worse than last time. I liked Maizono and it turned out she was planning to kill someone. I liked Rideaux but he was willing to kill us all just to get out. What the hell kind of person would look at someone like that and find any sort of sympathy for them? What the hell is wrong with me?
WEEK 3
He's fucking Kimblee. Why the hell didn't I realize that before? He looked so much like him and acted like him and that's why I was fine making excuses for him because I like Kimblee.
Fucking hell. I can't believe I didn't notice it before now. It just feels weird realizing it now.
WEEK 6
We had time to write notes to the deceased before Chitoge was killed again. I wrote to Rideaux first because... I don't know. I feel like there's a lot I still want to say to him, but even if he had come back instead of Chitoge I'm not sure I would have known how to put any of it into words.
It's pretty pointless anyway. I only knew him for two weeks.
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A king, apparently. Despite that, he doesn't seem regal at all. He definitely seems like the kind of guy who could throw a party. I'm sure he could take me in a fight, but I feel like it'd be fun? I'm not sure if he's intentionally being that interesting to trick us all or if he's just naturally like that. Either way, he's someone to keep an eye on.
Basically, I'd drink with him, but I wouldn't get drunk with him.
WEEK 3
He asked about Pokemon and whether or not they'd be executed with their trainers. It's a good question to ask, but it upset a lot of people and then Robert started acting like a child. So I don't really know what to make of that. He also got punched by Archie and he absolutely deserved it.
WEEK 4
Robert held Walter back from trying to kill anyone at the trial, so I guess this makes up for pissing Archie off and being a child in Cilan's direction. I hope he broke all of Walter's ribs.
WEEK 7
If I was sure I could kill him, he'd be the one I'd pick. I don't know him as well so it would be easiest. But I can't take that risk. He could easily overpower me and I think he'd be too smart to take anything I'd made him, otherwise I'd poison him. It doesn't really matter anyway. He'll die along with the rest.
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I wanted to like her. I did. I thought she was nice and kind and genuine and...
And then she turned around and tried to murder Mallick, only to be killed instead.
I don't blame Mallick for what he did. I voted for him and I was right for doing that, but Maizono was at fault. She was the one who started this. I wonder if she ever meant anything she said to me. I think she did, but maybe that's because I want to believe there's some good in people.
I won't make the same mistake again. Trusting anyone in a game like this is a death sentence.
WEEK 6
I've thought about Maizono a lot. Well, maybe not her, necessarily, but rather what happened. She was willing to use people to get out of here. She was willing to play up her cute persona so everyone would trust her, only to try to stab us in the back. I understand it so much better now and as fucked up as it is, I'm really not mad at her for it? I thought I was. Maybe I was. I don't know. Things have changed.
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He didn't believe me about alchemy and he's kind of prickly in general, but accusing him of murder during the trial was a bad idea. It made sense given what little information we had, but he's probably pissed as hell at all of us, even though Mallick suggested it.
Walter's definitely the kind of person who could kill someone. I wouldn't be surprised if he does.
WEEK 3
Walter's really obsessed with antagonizing the Adjudicator. It's kind of weird. We're all mad at him, but Walter takes it to a whole new level. He went kind of crazy during the trial. We played chess afterwards (he's really good) and we talked a bit afterwards. I still don't really know what to make of him.
WEEK 4
FUCK WALTER WHITE.
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He's alright, pretty easy to talk to and interested in alchemy. I tried teaching him some of the basics, but he couldn't activate an array which seems to prove that alchemy can't be used here at all. I don't want to teach him anything more though, just in case.
I don't trust him. I don't trust anyone here.
WEEK 2
At least he didn't make fun of me for that stupid dare.
WEEK 3
Killed by Archie, but William started it. I thought he was an okay guy, but I guess I was wrong again. I said I'd stop trusting people, but maybe I should just stop liking people.
...He left me a letter. "You'll get out of here, I'm certain." Why the hell did you have to have faith in me? I would've been just fine being mad that you tried to kill Archie, but now...
Sorry, William. I don't know if I will make it out of here.
WEEK 6
I wrote a note to him too. We never did get to learn much about him, did we? I wonder why he was willing to kill us all to get out.
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She's an interesting person and I like talking to her. I'm sure she could probably kill someone here despite how laid-back she seems. I wouldn't be surprised if she does. I don't want her to, but at this point there's very few people I think would be incapable of killing.
WEEK 2
She seems like a good person. Not that it means anything in here, of course.
WEEK 5
Yang killed Mozu, but Mozu killed her too. Juri revived Yang just to kill her again. It was brutal, but I didn't feel anything. I'm not mad about what happened. I'm not upset by it either. I just feel numb. I guess it's only a matter of time before we screw up one of these trials and we all die.
WEEK 6
Everyone's upset about Mozu and I get that, but... It almost feels like people have forgotten that Yang's a victim too. She wouldn't have started this if it wasn't for that motive, right? That's what I believe. Maybe I'm wrong, but I'm tired of trying to assume the worst about people here.
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He's got a good sense of humor and I like talking to him. He seems normal, but so did Maizono.
WEEK 2
We talked a bit about alchemy. It's kind of nice to get a chance to talk about something I care so much about, but it's still hard to avoid talking about what I've done.
WEEK 3
Yuri's not very good at chess. He's impulsive and reckless. I hope he's not that way when it comes to the Adjudicator. We don't need to lose anyone else.
WEEK 5
Hopefully sparring with Yuri will be fun. Less painful than sparring with Terumi, probably, but still fun.
WEEK 6
I was right, sparring with him is fun. He also got stabbed by Terumi, but he's alright. I don't think Terumi's going to kill anyone, but... Well, it's weird to think that Yuri might have died.
WEEK 7
I don't want Yuri to die, but I've made my decision.
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I can't fucking stand this guy. Terumi's intentionally trying to rile me up most of the time, I think. But sometimes he tries to talk about alchemy and stuff and he seems... okay? But he's definitely lying to me about whatever the hell happened to that one guy back in his world. This guy's really hard to deal with.
WEEK 2
Still can't stand this guy. Everything that comes out of this guy's mouth is ridiculous and I can't believe a word he says. I don't know why he keeps pestering me. What did I do to deserve this?
WEEK 3
...Apparently he really doesn't like lies, so... I don't want to think too much about everything he's told me. Apparently he's shared bodies with people before. That's really damn weird. He also thinks that you can use souls in alchemy without rebounds killing you? I don't know.
He also taught me a bit about coconuts in the worst possible way. By kicking it into a wall so it broke all over us. I can't even say I'm surprised. Nothing this guy says or does surprises me anymore. Not even the stuff about intentionally going after the family of that guy from the weird poster. Terumi's fucking weird.
We also fought and that was... actually kind of exciting? I still don't like him though.
WEEK 4
I guess I should stop lying to myself. I've got a soft spot for Terumi. I don't know why. He's an asshole, but he... kind of tries? In his own way? It's sort of nice. He was even encouraging, that was kind of odd.
WEEK 5
I kind of accidentally gave him the wrong idea about Kimblee. But it doesn't matter anyway! Sparring with him is still fun, but I got my ass kicked this time. I need to focus more on sparring with him; I can't let my guard down for a moment.
WEEK 6
I don't think he'd actually kill anyone here. He stabbed Yuri while they were sparring, sure, but Terumi's not stupid enough to kill anyone and try to get away with it.
But I'm still kind of worried that something'll happen. It's really weird to think about.
WEEK 7
I wish things didn't have to end like this. I really wanted to fight him at full strength.
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His name is "Juri" but that's stupid and I'm not calling him by name since he won't call us by our names. The Adjudicator's got a few people who really like him because of his appearance, but he's difficult as hell to talk to.
He wouldn't tell me what was stopping my alchemy from working, but he said he didn't do anything to me. The tattoo on my hand, my hair, the scar on my back... All of that seems to be stuff he didn't do. He also said the information on our profiles is right, but that's not possible... is it?
I don't believe what he's said, but I don't have any way to prove he's lying either. It's infuriating. This game is fucked up too, but we don't have much of a choice but to follow his damn rules for now.
Killing him is out of the question. He can rip someone's soul out just by touching them. I don't know what the fuck to do about him. For now I guess we'll just have to wait it out. Maybe rescue will come.
(I don't think it will.)
WEEK 2
He offered a bonus to anyone who killed and Rideaux took him up on it. I'm still pissed at the Adjudicator, but that was Rideaux's fault for going through with it. I don't regret voting for him. I'm doing what I can to stay alive.
But the Adjudicator will pay. He's not human - he doesn't bleed - but there has to be some way to put a stop to this.
WEEK 3
This time he's offering us a chance to go back and change something in the our pasts. I still don't know if he has the power to do that. I wouldn't want to kill anyone anyway, even if it did sound like a good idea.
...But if that file Angel got out of the machine is right... then I'm not a State Alchemist anymore and I have no idea what happened. Maybe it would be best if I just never joined the military in the first place.
Not that I'm considering acting on this stupid incentive, of course.
He killed Chitoge today because she tried to poison him. I don't blame him for it. I want to be mad at him or upset about Chitoge's death... but I don't feel anything. The Adjudicator was in the right this time.
I talked to him the night after Chitoge tried to kill him and he seemed perfectly fine. But more importantly, he actually gave me answers, specifically about the file (which he believes is true, but doesn't seem to know for certain) and our missing memories. Apparently they are memories and eventually they'll all make sense. He didn't seem surprised that I was missing seven years either, so he probably knows a good deal about us. More than the profiles let on, maybe...? I don't know. I still don't think I can trust him, but it felt kind of nice to have that confirmed. I guess I just need something to make sense for once.
WEEK 4
AZ wanted to die, so he got the Adjudicator in on it. At least we didn't have to have a trial to figure it out.
He seemed really damn interested in the trial and didn't plan on stopping it even though Fern was bleeding out. What a sick fuck.
WEEK 5
He revived Yang just so he could kill her again. I didn't think he could like someone here, but I guess Mozu was nice to him or something. It was still fucked up.
WEEK 6
Chitoge somehow came back to life, so he killed her again. I actually agree with him on that, how fucked up is that? I'm not sure I should be agreeing with anything he says or does, but...
WEEK 7
Threatening to expose our secrets clearly isn't going to work on everyone. But as long as it works on one person...
I can't take that risk. I'm not going to die here.
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Do what you can to survive and get out. That's what he told me and that's what I'll do. I'm going to survive this and I'm going to survive the war.
Trusting anyone here is stupid and I won't do it again. If Maizono could attempt to kill someone, what's stopping anyone else?
WEEK 2
...I dreamed about Mustang of all people. I guess it was because Mallick was an arsonist? I don't know. It wasn't a bad dream, which makes no sense. I should be having nightmares. I've been having nightmares nonstop since I woke up here. But I got to splash Mustang in the face. The rest of the dream was weird and I'm not sure what to make of it. There were soldiers with guns and I got the feeling they were going to kill me.
But it was just a stupid dream. It doesn't matter.
Some people seem to think those dreams are memories, and while that would explain a few things... I really hate that idea. That doesn't even make sense.
Rideaux killed Nephenee to try to escape. He would have been fine killing all of us for it. I'm really damn mad at him, but mostly I'm just upset that he resorted to that. I didn't want him to die. I don't know why.
WEEK 3
I dreamed about Kimblee. I was surrounded at one point and had run out of water, so I used an open injury on my back and managed to get out alive. The injury was so severe that I had to stay put for awhile and Kimblee came to visit. He said I was the craziest person in the war, but it was a compliment and I was actually pretty flattered by it...
Rideaux reminded me of Kimblee. That explains a lot and makes me feel really damn weird. They aren't the same person. I don't know why I'm still such a mess about it.
I don't think this last one was a dream. The scar on my back would probably match up with what happened in the dream. So... if they are memories... what the hell was going on with Mustang and the soldiers?
Angel got a file from the machine that says that I deserted after the war. Which is possible, I guess. Kimblee told me to get out and if I took that literally... But even if the file is right, it doesn't explain what happened afterwards. I'm still missing seven years if the profile's accurate.
I don't know what to think about any of this. It's really beginning to fuck with me.
Chitoge's dead. She tried to poison the Adjudicator. He killed her right in front of us. I'm not upset. I'm not mad. I guess I've just reached the point where I'll accept this. I don't know. What the hell do I do with this? I guess we just move on. Accept that this happened and keep going. There isn't anything else to do. Keep moving forward, get out of here.
After talking to the Adjudicator, it seems like the strange dreams are memories and that file's correct. If that's the case, then I really am missing seven years' worth of memories. What did I do after I left the military? How did that lead to Mustang trying to kill me? I guess I'll find out eventually. The Adjudicator said that it'd become clear in time and while I don't trust him... I think I want to believe that. It'll make things easier on me if it does become clear in time.
WEEK 4
I don't care what Ferid thinks, I don't like Kimblee like that. He's important to me, that's all. It doesn't mean anything. I guess the first thing I do when I return home is find him, because I need to know if we talked or not and if we didn't... I want to apologize. He really did have such a huge impact on my life and he needs to know. But it doesn't mean anything!
AZ died today. He wanted to. The Adjudicator killed him. I should feel something, but I don't. It's not in the same numb way as before though. I just don't feel anything about it.
I still need to figure out what that memory meant. I think I have a pretty good idea. If there were three arrays there, then presumably with enough power I could create the glaciers I saw, but... How? Why? I know I wanted to kill Bradley for Ishval, but I don't understand. That would kill a lot of people. That did kill a lot of people. How could I do something like that again? I don't want to hurt innocent people, I don't want to hurt people at all! Why... Why is this happening? What the hell caused me to think this was a good idea?
Brady and Mack died. Walter killed them. I feel bad about Brady, but I'm taking this better than I have the other deaths. I guess I'm getting used to it. Or maybe I'm just so used to death in general and my memories kicking in has finally gotten me to that point... I don't know.
"Keep moving forward." Yeah. That's all I can do.
WEEK 5
Apparently Armstrong hasn't changed in the past seven years. Fuck, why the hell did I dream about him? And what's with those two kids anyway...? This dream didn't tell me much. That array though... I think I've got a pretty damn good idea what I was trying to do.
Freezing Central over would kill so many people. Is it really worth it? What made me decide to do this? I still don't know.
...Why did I decide to grow my hair out? Why did I tattoo my array on my palm? I was wearing eyeliner when I woke up here too... This is kind of worrying. Was I doing this because of Kimblee? What if I actually—
Fuck that. Fuck that. Ferid is absolutely not right about that.
Mozu and Yang killed each other, so it took us awhile to put it together. The Adjudicator didn't call a vote early though, so I guess there's that. We really could have died today though. We're probably going to die soon. I don't know if we can make it through another trial.
I don't want to die here.
WEEK 6
"He'll lead us all to ruin! I'm only doing what needs to be done!"
Is that true? Am I really doing the right thing by trying to kill Bradley? I don't know. I'm convinced of it back home. I'm so close to figuring out exactly why I chose to pursue this, but there's something missing.
I had a Philosopher's Stone though. I know that much. Where the hell is it? It wasn't on me when I woke up here, so the Adjudicator must have it. Even with that he couldn't do what he does now, but... I don't like the idea of him having it. I need that to finish what I started. I don't know if that's what I want to do though.
Maybe next week I'll remember enough to know why I was so determined to kill Bradley. Until then... Well, sometimes extreme measures have to be taken, don't they?
Sometimes sacrifices have to be made.
WEEK 7
I don't remember everything, but I remember enough. I can't believe I didn't realize it before, but this is why Central's design has been bugging me. Central's not the only thing that's a circle; Amestris is a circle too. The points on the map would create an array, and that array would create a Philosopher's Stone...
How long is it going to take before Bradley can complete that array? He needs to be stopped. He needs to be stopped now and I was so damn close to it... But then I got pulled here. I need to get home. I have to stop this.
I can't let them all die. I can't sit back and let this happen. If no one else is going to step forward to take care of things, I will.
...But I'm not sure I can do that to the people here.
The motive this week is secrets. The Adjudicator claims he'll reveal our secrets to everyone in our worlds. So what? Everyone already knows I tried to freeze Central over, right? It doesn't matter. I don't have anything else to hide. I don't want the people here knowing about what I did, but even if he tells everyone it doesn't matter.
Someone's going to move on this. Someone's going to kill again and I'm not sure we're going to be able to solve it.
Maybe I should...
Amestris is going to be turned into a Philosopher's Stone if no one steps up to stop Bradley. I can't let that happen. I've already made my preparations and I'm going to move tonight.
Sacrifices have to be made.