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TRUSTFELL NOTES
Isaac's room is ridiculously neat - you'll notice that there's nothing out of place and nothing looks cluttered. You can find most of his belongings in his trunk, though all the items he wanted to keep are in the closet. There are some notes laid out on his desk as well, addressed to the other people here (and one other person).
Those might not be the first things you see though, since there are the designs painted on two of the walls. You'll find yourself staring at a map of Amestris with certain cities labeled. Ishval is circled in red. Some of them have paper duct-taped nearby with Isaac's handwriting, written in code of course.
The second wall has a map of Central City with a familiar alchemical array painted through it in red. Three specific points are marked on this map and once again there's duct tape and paper containing notes on whatever it is this one's supposed to represent.
Inside the desk you can find an alarming amount of notes - they're written in Amestrian and coded in a cipher that involves numbers, letters, and mathematical equations. If you're able to figure out the cipher you're certainly welcome to read them! Otherwise these are coded to look like research notes on his alchemy.
Those might not be the first things you see though, since there are the designs painted on two of the walls. You'll find yourself staring at a map of Amestris with certain cities labeled. Ishval is circled in red. Some of them have paper duct-taped nearby with Isaac's handwriting, written in code of course.
The second wall has a map of Central City with a familiar alchemical array painted through it in red. Three specific points are marked on this map and once again there's duct tape and paper containing notes on whatever it is this one's supposed to represent.
Inside the desk you can find an alarming amount of notes - they're written in Amestrian and coded in a cipher that involves numbers, letters, and mathematical equations. If you're able to figure out the cipher you're certainly welcome to read them! Otherwise these are coded to look like research notes on his alchemy.
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Do what you can to survive and get out. That's what he told me and that's what I'll do. I'm going to survive this and I'm going to survive the war.
Trusting anyone here is stupid and I won't do it again. If Maizono could attempt to kill someone, what's stopping anyone else?
WEEK 2
...I dreamed about Mustang of all people. I guess it was because Mallick was an arsonist? I don't know. It wasn't a bad dream, which makes no sense. I should be having nightmares. I've been having nightmares nonstop since I woke up here. But I got to splash Mustang in the face. The rest of the dream was weird and I'm not sure what to make of it. There were soldiers with guns and I got the feeling they were going to kill me.
But it was just a stupid dream. It doesn't matter.
Some people seem to think those dreams are memories, and while that would explain a few things... I really hate that idea. That doesn't even make sense.
Rideaux killed Nephenee to try to escape. He would have been fine killing all of us for it. I'm really damn mad at him, but mostly I'm just upset that he resorted to that. I didn't want him to die. I don't know why.
WEEK 3
I dreamed about Kimblee. I was surrounded at one point and had run out of water, so I used an open injury on my back and managed to get out alive. The injury was so severe that I had to stay put for awhile and Kimblee came to visit. He said I was the craziest person in the war, but it was a compliment and I was actually pretty flattered by it...
Rideaux reminded me of Kimblee. That explains a lot and makes me feel really damn weird. They aren't the same person. I don't know why I'm still such a mess about it.
I don't think this last one was a dream. The scar on my back would probably match up with what happened in the dream. So... if they are memories... what the hell was going on with Mustang and the soldiers?
Angel got a file from the machine that says that I deserted after the war. Which is possible, I guess. Kimblee told me to get out and if I took that literally... But even if the file is right, it doesn't explain what happened afterwards. I'm still missing seven years if the profile's accurate.
I don't know what to think about any of this. It's really beginning to fuck with me.
Chitoge's dead. She tried to poison the Adjudicator. He killed her right in front of us. I'm not upset. I'm not mad. I guess I've just reached the point where I'll accept this. I don't know. What the hell do I do with this? I guess we just move on. Accept that this happened and keep going. There isn't anything else to do. Keep moving forward, get out of here.
After talking to the Adjudicator, it seems like the strange dreams are memories and that file's correct. If that's the case, then I really am missing seven years' worth of memories. What did I do after I left the military? How did that lead to Mustang trying to kill me? I guess I'll find out eventually. The Adjudicator said that it'd become clear in time and while I don't trust him... I think I want to believe that. It'll make things easier on me if it does become clear in time.
WEEK 4
I don't care what Ferid thinks, I don't like Kimblee like that. He's important to me, that's all. It doesn't mean anything. I guess the first thing I do when I return home is find him, because I need to know if we talked or not and if we didn't... I want to apologize. He really did have such a huge impact on my life and he needs to know. But it doesn't mean anything!
AZ died today. He wanted to. The Adjudicator killed him. I should feel something, but I don't. It's not in the same numb way as before though. I just don't feel anything about it.
I still need to figure out what that memory meant. I think I have a pretty good idea. If there were three arrays there, then presumably with enough power I could create the glaciers I saw, but... How? Why? I know I wanted to kill Bradley for Ishval, but I don't understand. That would kill a lot of people. That did kill a lot of people. How could I do something like that again? I don't want to hurt innocent people, I don't want to hurt people at all! Why... Why is this happening? What the hell caused me to think this was a good idea?
Brady and Mack died. Walter killed them. I feel bad about Brady, but I'm taking this better than I have the other deaths. I guess I'm getting used to it. Or maybe I'm just so used to death in general and my memories kicking in has finally gotten me to that point... I don't know.
"Keep moving forward." Yeah. That's all I can do.
WEEK 5
Apparently Armstrong hasn't changed in the past seven years. Fuck, why the hell did I dream about him? And what's with those two kids anyway...? This dream didn't tell me much. That array though... I think I've got a pretty damn good idea what I was trying to do.
Freezing Central over would kill so many people. Is it really worth it? What made me decide to do this? I still don't know.
...Why did I decide to grow my hair out? Why did I tattoo my array on my palm? I was wearing eyeliner when I woke up here too... This is kind of worrying. Was I doing this because of Kimblee? What if I actually—
Fuck that. Fuck that. Ferid is absolutely not right about that.
Mozu and Yang killed each other, so it took us awhile to put it together. The Adjudicator didn't call a vote early though, so I guess there's that. We really could have died today though. We're probably going to die soon. I don't know if we can make it through another trial.
I don't want to die here.
WEEK 6
"He'll lead us all to ruin! I'm only doing what needs to be done!"
Is that true? Am I really doing the right thing by trying to kill Bradley? I don't know. I'm convinced of it back home. I'm so close to figuring out exactly why I chose to pursue this, but there's something missing.
I had a Philosopher's Stone though. I know that much. Where the hell is it? It wasn't on me when I woke up here, so the Adjudicator must have it. Even with that he couldn't do what he does now, but... I don't like the idea of him having it. I need that to finish what I started. I don't know if that's what I want to do though.
Maybe next week I'll remember enough to know why I was so determined to kill Bradley. Until then... Well, sometimes extreme measures have to be taken, don't they?
Sometimes sacrifices have to be made.
WEEK 7
I don't remember everything, but I remember enough. I can't believe I didn't realize it before, but this is why Central's design has been bugging me. Central's not the only thing that's a circle; Amestris is a circle too. The points on the map would create an array, and that array would create a Philosopher's Stone...
How long is it going to take before Bradley can complete that array? He needs to be stopped. He needs to be stopped now and I was so damn close to it... But then I got pulled here. I need to get home. I have to stop this.
I can't let them all die. I can't sit back and let this happen. If no one else is going to step forward to take care of things, I will.
...But I'm not sure I can do that to the people here.
The motive this week is secrets. The Adjudicator claims he'll reveal our secrets to everyone in our worlds. So what? Everyone already knows I tried to freeze Central over, right? It doesn't matter. I don't have anything else to hide. I don't want the people here knowing about what I did, but even if he tells everyone it doesn't matter.
Someone's going to move on this. Someone's going to kill again and I'm not sure we're going to be able to solve it.
Maybe I should...
Amestris is going to be turned into a Philosopher's Stone if no one steps up to stop Bradley. I can't let that happen. I've already made my preparations and I'm going to move tonight.
Sacrifices have to be made.