There are a lot of things I wish I could say to you, but I don't think I'd ever have enough time for it. It's terrible being on a time limit like this. You already know that I'm not any better at writing, so I guess this letter will probably be exactly as bad as you're expecting. Sorry in advance.
Thank you for listening to me. I needed someone there and you were really good at being blunt with me. I honestly don't know what I would have done without you. I'm glad we were able to meet, even if it was in a terrible situation like this. You've always been kind of an inspiration to me. Did I ever tell you that? I don't think I did. But you're always so strong - and I'm sure part of that is because you're a vampire and you don't feel things like humans do, but part of that is just you. You're clever and charismatic and sometimes you can be cruel, but you were never terrible to me. Not directly, anyway. You could have been; I didn't open myself up to anyone like I did to you and you could have taken advantage of that if you really wanted to. I'm glad you didn't. I guess that goes without saying.
There are a lot more things I really like about you, but I'm not sure I have time to write them all out. But I do want you to know that for as much as I liked Kimblee, I like you more. A lot more. I actually got to know you, after all! And you're really important to me. You're more important to me than anyone else and I'm really sorry that things are ending so soon.
But I meant what I said. I'll find you in another lifetime. I don't care how long it takes. And when I do, I'll finally give you a primrose.
(This one can be found in Ferid's room, sitting on his desk.)
Dear Ferid,
I know I told you I was going to only give you one letter, but I changed my mind. Don't start assuming they're everywhere, though. I didn't have time to write one for every room. I probably would have if I did. Ginti probably would have been mad though, so this is probably for the best.
What I'm going to write next might be cruel. I don't really know if it is. If you want to stop reading here, that's fine. I just wanted to warn you in case you decide that you don't want to deal with it. It's a lot of feelings stuff, so you're probably not missing out on much if you want to skip it.
...
Still here? Okay.
In a way I'm kind of sorry I didn't agree to your marriage proposal. (It really could have used some work, though.) I doubt it would do any good going into our next lives, but maybe it would have helped us remember. If it takes forever for me to find you, that's probably why. Sorry.
I fell really hard for you. And really fast, too. I didn't like you this much at first and it was only after awhile of being dead that it did happen. It feels kind of like a waste of time. If I'd figured it out earlier then maybe we would have had more time together. I don't know if that would have made a difference.
I think I love you. Sorry, that's the cruelest one. I probably should have said that to your face, but I couldn't bring myself to. Unless I somehow found my spine at the end, which will just make this letter really stupid. But I kind of doubt that will happen. I don't really say "I love you" lightly, so I wanted to be absolutely sure before I said it. Even writing it out now I'm not sure I can really say it. I'm not sure if it's because I'm trying to spare your feelings or mine.
(This one is in Isaac's room on top of his alchemy research notes. The notes are all there, but they're coded as usual. There's a hint at how to break the code in the top of this letter though!)
Dear Ferid,
This is the final letter, I promise. Don't go looking anywhere else, because you won't find any others.
If anyone is going to be able to figure out my code and read all of my notes, it's you. I doubt it'll do any good, but my alchemy's my pride and joy and I want to leave it for you. Maybe it'll give you someone to work on during the nights when you're not sleeping. (Do arbiters sleep?)
I hope you have a lot of fun here with Ginti. I don't want you to be upset or bothered by anything, so I like thinking that you'll have fun. Maybe you'll throw parties for the arbiters. I'm actually kind of sad I won't get to see that. If they're all like Ginti and Decim then they'll do nothing but hold up the walls and I think you'd find that really disappointing.
When we meet again I hope I'll have some memories of our time together. But even if I don't I want you to know that these have been some of the best times of my life. You mean the world to me and I hope when we meet again I'll finally find the words to express it.
Take care and have fun. I would hate for you to freeze up.
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Dear Ferid,
There are a lot of things I wish I could say to you, but I don't think I'd ever have enough time for it. It's terrible being on a time limit like this. You already know that I'm not any better at writing, so I guess this letter will probably be exactly as bad as you're expecting. Sorry in advance.
Thank you for listening to me. I needed someone there and you were really good at being blunt with me. I honestly don't know what I would have done without you. I'm glad we were able to meet, even if it was in a terrible situation like this. You've always been kind of an inspiration to me. Did I ever tell you that? I don't think I did. But you're always so strong - and I'm sure part of that is because you're a vampire and you don't feel things like humans do, but part of that is just you. You're clever and charismatic and sometimes you can be cruel, but you were never terrible to me. Not directly, anyway. You could have been; I didn't open myself up to anyone like I did to you and you could have taken advantage of that if you really wanted to. I'm glad you didn't. I guess that goes without saying.
There are a lot more things I really like about you, but I'm not sure I have time to write them all out. But I do want you to know that for as much as I liked Kimblee, I like you more. A lot more. I actually got to know you, after all! And you're really important to me. You're more important to me than anyone else and I'm really sorry that things are ending so soon.
But I meant what I said. I'll find you in another lifetime. I don't care how long it takes. And when I do, I'll finally give you a primrose.
So don't forget me, okay?
- Isaac
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Dear Ferid,
I know I told you I was going to only give you one letter, but I changed my mind. Don't start assuming they're everywhere, though. I didn't have time to write one for every room. I probably would have if I did. Ginti probably would have been mad though, so this is probably for the best.
What I'm going to write next might be cruel. I don't really know if it is. If you want to stop reading here, that's fine. I just wanted to warn you in case you decide that you don't want to deal with it. It's a lot of feelings stuff, so you're probably not missing out on much if you want to skip it.
...
Still here? Okay.
In a way I'm kind of sorry I didn't agree to your marriage proposal. (It really could have used some work, though.) I doubt it would do any good going into our next lives, but maybe it would have helped us remember. If it takes forever for me to find you, that's probably why. Sorry.
I fell really hard for you. And really fast, too. I didn't like you this much at first and it was only after awhile of being dead that it did happen. It feels kind of like a waste of time. If I'd figured it out earlier then maybe we would have had more time together. I don't know if that would have made a difference.
I think I love you. Sorry, that's the cruelest one. I probably should have said that to your face, but I couldn't bring myself to. Unless I somehow found my spine at the end, which will just make this letter really stupid. But I kind of doubt that will happen. I don't really say "I love you" lightly, so I wanted to be absolutely sure before I said it. Even writing it out now I'm not sure I can really say it. I'm not sure if it's because I'm trying to spare your feelings or mine.
Thank you for everything you did for me.
Love,
Isaac
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Dear Ferid,
This is the final letter, I promise. Don't go looking anywhere else, because you won't find any others.
If anyone is going to be able to figure out my code and read all of my notes, it's you. I doubt it'll do any good, but my alchemy's my pride and joy and I want to leave it for you. Maybe it'll give you someone to work on during the nights when you're not sleeping. (Do arbiters sleep?)
I hope you have a lot of fun here with Ginti. I don't want you to be upset or bothered by anything, so I like thinking that you'll have fun. Maybe you'll throw parties for the arbiters. I'm actually kind of sad I won't get to see that. If they're all like Ginti and Decim then they'll do nothing but hold up the walls and I think you'd find that really disappointing.
When we meet again I hope I'll have some memories of our time together. But even if I don't I want you to know that these have been some of the best times of my life. You mean the world to me and I hope when we meet again I'll finally find the words to express it.
Take care and have fun. I would hate for you to freeze up.
- Isaac