I did what I thought I had to do. I willingly took a risk and if you're reading this, then things didn't go as I had hoped they would. The rest of you are alive, and to be honest, I'm glad. I didn't want everyone to die.
It's complicated, I guess. I've probably told you all everything already, but in case I didn't... Amestris is going to be turned into an array. Once it's activated, everyone in the country will be sacrificed to create a Philosopher's Stone. I couldn't let that happened, so I decided to kill someone. I thought killing two people - people I wouldn't be suspected of killing - would work, but... I guess it didn't.
I really am glad that you all lived. I'm sorry about Naoto and Aymeric. I truly am. I know you probably can't believe me. If any of you are willing, could you please deliver this letter to Kimblee? I'm afraid I don't know exactly where he is, but he should be somewhere in Amestris.
You were always kind of weird and I don't think I ever really figured out how to talk to you, but... I'm really glad I met you.
I know you'll be okay though. You've been really good at handling everything that comes your way. I know you'll be alright looking after the others too.
I really didn't want you to die, so if you're reading this... then I'm really glad that I failed. I was really nervous about getting attached to anyone here after what happened in the first week with Maizono and Mallick, but you made it so easy. I never had to worry about how awkward I am around you. It always felt natural.
Sorry, I don't think reading that is going to help any. I really hope you're not too upset.
Keep moving forward. You've got a lot to work towards. I know you can do it. I'm sorry to be a burden on you as well, but if there is a way to bring the dead back... well, I'm one more you need to think about, I guess.
But I took this risk knowingly, so if you have to choose who you're bringing back, don't pick me. I made my decision and I stand by it. It was wrong and I do feel bad about it, but...
I don't really know how to start this. I feel like I should write something more personal for you, but I don't know what to say. I don't really know how to write any of these letters, honestly. What do you say if you tried to get everyone killed but you failed? I don't know.
Anyway, thanks for talking with me so much. I didn't always enjoy it, but you were entertaining. I really did mean it when I said you were my favorite annoying friend. No one can bother me like you can.
...Could, I guess. I'm sorry. I'm sure you'll be okay, but keep an eye on Inigo, alright?
I'm sure you're going to be really mad during the trial. I'm sure you're going to be really pissed off at me for killing a child. You have every right to be and... I don't know what I'll end up saying, but I'll say it here so you know, at least.
I'm sorry. I really did feel bad about killing Naoto. I had my reasons for choosing her, but I didn't realize just how shitty I'd feel afterwards. Isn't that fucked up? "I didn't realize I'd feel bad after killing a child." I'm a very different person now. I could blame the Ishval War for screwing me up so badly, but honestly I think I've always been a little fucked up.
Sorry. That's not helpful. I don't really know what to say to you. I'm really sorry about Naoto. I'm really sorry about Aymeric. And I'm really sorry that I tried to get all of you killed just so I could go back and try to save Amestris on my own. Maybe I should have waited, but I couldn't. I was scared. So I did what I always do, I acted on my own and I killed innocent people who shouldn't have died.
Please get out of here. Please do what you can for the others. I know I don't have any place to request that of you, but I know you'll do what you can anyway.
I'm sorry. I did what I thought was best for Amestris at the time, but sitting here now and thinking about it... I'm not sure I can justify it in front of you all. I don't know if I can get away with this. I don't think I will. That's why I'm writing these letters.
I don't want you to die. I don't really want anyone here to die, but especially not you. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for. You'll get through this, just like you've gotten through everything else. I'm sure of it. But it's probably going to be tough for awhile, and it's okay to be really damn pissed off at me. You should be. I stabbed you all in the back (and Aymeric in the front) for a chance to get out of here. My reasons shouldn't have anything to do with that.
Thanks for everything, Inigo. You were a really good friend. I'm sorry things ended like this.
I'm really sorry about everything I did, but I feel like I need to apologize to you more than anyone else. I don't know if you guys found the notes I left, but... maybe you did. You probably did. If I really didn't want anyone to find them I know I should've just taken them.
Anyway, my original plan was to kill you and Naoto. If I took out two investigators, that'd make the chances of success higher. You guys are both kids and I'm really fond of you. No one would've suspected me.
But I couldn't do it. I couldn't even finish the note, how the hell was I supposed to kill you? I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I considered it, that I got close to acting on it. And I'm sorry that I killed Naoto and Aymeric instead. I know you're probably really damn mad at me and you have every right to be. But please don't blame yourself for any of this, alright? Don't you dare start thinking that it would've been better if it was you. I'm glad you're alive and I want you to live.
"Keep moving forward." That's the last thing I'll leave you with.
Thank you for trying to help me out with my feelings. But I want you to know that Kimblee had nothing to do with my decision and if that comes up in the trial I'm going to be mad. But... I really do want to thank you. You helped me out a lot and it was really nice getting to know you.
Everyone's got plenty of reasons to be mad at me, but I'm not sure how you'll react. I assume you'll be mad. Who wouldn't be?
I'm sorry. I really am. I used what you taught me to kill someone, how fucked up is that? It seemed like a good way to deflect attention at the time. I don't know. I planned this whole damn thing out and now that I'm looking back on it, there are so many things I should have done differently.
If you're reading this then I didn't get away with it and honestly, I'm glad. I get the punishment I deserve for killing two innocent people and you all get to live. Maybe this will take you closer to the end of this sick game.
Good luck, Mahiru. Do what you can to make it out.
I'm sorry you lost one of the people you were sparring against. I hope Terumi can keep you entertained.
...But seriously, I really fucked up and if I die, then I absolutely deserve it. If you all die... well, I guess I'll throw these letters in the incinerator and do my best to keep moving forward. I did intend to sacrifice you guys, after all.
Sorry. This whole thing is really fucked up. But I'm sure I can count on you to look after the others. You're good at that. You can be pissed off at me all you want, but please try to keep the others safe.
There are a lot of things I should probably tell you, since I can't tell anyone else. I'm not sure how much I'll end up saying during the trial, so you might have heard some of this already. Sorry.
The notes I've been working on for weeks now involve a giant transmutation circle and remotely activating the arrays all at once. It's to create glaciers that will ultimately meet in the middle of the circle. It's a pretty damn impressive technique, but it requires a lot of power to pull it off. I had a Philosopher's Stone on my person, but I didn't have it when I woke up here. Juri probably has it. See if you can find it. I don't know if it'll do you any good, but I'd rather you all have it. I don't know if Juri's able to put our souls into the Philosopher's Stone... but none of the others who have died deserve that (except Walter). Please don't let that happen to them.
Anyway, I used that Philosopher's Stone to activate these arrays and my sole aim was to kill one person. Fuhrer Bradley is responsible for the Ishval War and while he certainly needs to pay for that, he's fully aware of the transmutation circle being made through Amestris. Once all the points on the array have been created with enough bloodshed, everyone in the country will die.
I had to sacrifice Central City for it, but I was so damn close. I need to get home so I can see if my plan worked and if it didn't... well, I need to come up with another way to kill Bradley. That's why I killed Naoto and Aymeric. It doesn't make what I did right, but it is an explanation.
I'm pretty fond of you now. I wasn't at first and I don't know when exactly it started, but you're my friend. I really enjoyed sparring with you. I liked talking about alchemy with you. And I'm really sorry that I'm leaving you like this.
Thanks for talking with me so much, even if I didn't appreciate it at first.
If you're reading this, then I'm already dead. I'm sorry that this is the way you're finding out about it.
I was involved in a game where we were told to kill one another to escape. I tried to kill people, but ultimately I was caught and executed for it. I deserve the punishment I was given, so I'm not upset about that.
I am sorry that I didn't get a chance to speak with you again, though. You really changed my life. Hell, you saved my life. I wouldn't have survived Ishval without you.
I don't remember everything so maybe I did talk to you at some point. I hope I did. You were really important to me.
- Isaac
I think I mightI really likeI fell in love with you
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It's complicated, I guess. I've probably told you all everything already, but in case I didn't... Amestris is going to be turned into an array. Once it's activated, everyone in the country will be sacrificed to create a Philosopher's Stone. I couldn't let that happened, so I decided to kill someone. I thought killing two people - people I wouldn't be suspected of killing - would work, but... I guess it didn't.
I really am glad that you all lived. I'm sorry about Naoto and Aymeric. I truly am. I know you probably can't believe me. If any of you are willing, could you please deliver this letter to Kimblee? I'm afraid I don't know exactly where he is, but he should be somewhere in Amestris.
Keep moving forward.
- Isaac
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I know you'll be okay though. You've been really good at handling everything that comes your way. I know you'll be alright looking after the others too.
Thank you for everything and... I'm sorry.
- Isaac
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Sorry, I don't think reading that is going to help any. I really hope you're not too upset.
Keep moving forward. You've got a lot to work towards. I know you can do it. I'm sorry to be a burden on you as well, but if there is a way to bring the dead back... well, I'm one more you need to think about, I guess.
But I took this risk knowingly, so if you have to choose who you're bringing back, don't pick me. I made my decision and I stand by it. It was wrong and I do feel bad about it, but...
I'm sorry. I'm really damn sorry.
- Isaac
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...Take care of yourself as well, okay?
- Isaac
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Anyway, thanks for talking with me so much. I didn't always enjoy it, but you were entertaining. I really did mean it when I said you were my favorite annoying friend. No one can bother me like you can.
...Could, I guess. I'm sorry. I'm sure you'll be okay, but keep an eye on Inigo, alright?
- Isaac
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I'm sorry. I really did feel bad about killing Naoto. I had my reasons for choosing her, but I didn't realize just how shitty I'd feel afterwards. Isn't that fucked up? "I didn't realize I'd feel bad after killing a child." I'm a very different person now. I could blame the Ishval War for screwing me up so badly, but honestly I think I've always been a little fucked up.
Sorry. That's not helpful. I don't really know what to say to you. I'm really sorry about Naoto. I'm really sorry about Aymeric. And I'm really sorry that I tried to get all of you killed just so I could go back and try to save Amestris on my own. Maybe I should have waited, but I couldn't. I was scared. So I did what I always do, I acted on my own and I killed innocent people who shouldn't have died.
Please get out of here. Please do what you can for the others. I know I don't have any place to request that of you, but I know you'll do what you can anyway.
- Isaac
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I don't want you to die. I don't really want anyone here to die, but especially not you. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for. You'll get through this, just like you've gotten through everything else. I'm sure of it. But it's probably going to be tough for awhile, and it's okay to be really damn pissed off at me. You should be. I stabbed you all in the back (and Aymeric in the front) for a chance to get out of here. My reasons shouldn't have anything to do with that.
Thanks for everything, Inigo. You were a really good friend. I'm sorry things ended like this.
- Isaac
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I'm sorry that I've just made things worse.
- Isaac
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Anyway, my original plan was to kill you and Naoto. If I took out two investigators, that'd make the chances of success higher. You guys are both kids and I'm really fond of you. No one would've suspected me.
But I couldn't do it. I couldn't even finish the note, how the hell was I supposed to kill you? I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I considered it, that I got close to acting on it. And I'm sorry that I killed Naoto and Aymeric instead. I know you're probably really damn mad at me and you have every right to be. But please don't blame yourself for any of this, alright? Don't you dare start thinking that it would've been better if it was you. I'm glad you're alive and I want you to live.
"Keep moving forward." That's the last thing I'll leave you with.
- Isaac
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I'm sorry that I ended it like this.
- Isaac
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I'm sorry. I really am. I used what you taught me to kill someone, how fucked up is that? It seemed like a good way to deflect attention at the time. I don't know. I planned this whole damn thing out and now that I'm looking back on it, there are so many things I should have done differently.
If you're reading this then I didn't get away with it and honestly, I'm glad. I get the punishment I deserve for killing two innocent people and you all get to live. Maybe this will take you closer to the end of this sick game.
Good luck, Mahiru. Do what you can to make it out.
- Isaac
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...But seriously, I really fucked up and if I die, then I absolutely deserve it. If you all die... well, I guess I'll throw these letters in the incinerator and do my best to keep moving forward. I did intend to sacrifice you guys, after all.
Sorry. This whole thing is really fucked up. But I'm sure I can count on you to look after the others. You're good at that. You can be pissed off at me all you want, but please try to keep the others safe.
- Isaac
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The notes I've been working on for weeks now involve a giant transmutation circle and remotely activating the arrays all at once. It's to create glaciers that will ultimately meet in the middle of the circle. It's a pretty damn impressive technique, but it requires a lot of power to pull it off. I had a Philosopher's Stone on my person, but I didn't have it when I woke up here. Juri probably has it. See if you can find it. I don't know if it'll do you any good, but I'd rather you all have it. I don't know if Juri's able to put our souls into the Philosopher's Stone... but none of the others who have died deserve that (except Walter). Please don't let that happen to them.
Anyway, I used that Philosopher's Stone to activate these arrays and my sole aim was to kill one person. Fuhrer Bradley is responsible for the Ishval War and while he certainly needs to pay for that, he's fully aware of the transmutation circle being made through Amestris. Once all the points on the array have been created with enough bloodshed, everyone in the country will die.
I had to sacrifice Central City for it, but I was so damn close. I need to get home so I can see if my plan worked and if it didn't... well, I need to come up with another way to kill Bradley. That's why I killed Naoto and Aymeric. It doesn't make what I did right, but it is an explanation.
I'm pretty fond of you now. I wasn't at first and I don't know when exactly it started, but you're my friend. I really enjoyed sparring with you. I liked talking about alchemy with you. And I'm really sorry that I'm leaving you like this.
Thanks for talking with me so much, even if I didn't appreciate it at first.
- Isaac
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I was involved in a game where we were told to kill one another to escape. I tried to kill people, but ultimately I was caught and executed for it. I deserve the punishment I was given, so I'm not upset about that.
I am sorry that I didn't get a chance to speak with you again, though. You really changed my life. Hell, you saved my life. I wouldn't have survived Ishval without you.
I don't remember everything so maybe I did talk to you at some point. I hope I did. You were really important to me.
- Isaac
I think I mightI really likeI fell in love with you