[Kimblee is silent for a moment following that; it strikes him again that if he were a better person, he should probably contradict that. Isaac doesn't know half of what he's done; he doesn't know half of what he's still doing. He knows he shouldn't care about Isaac's response, and were they back in Amestris, he wouldn't care; he would tell him, and he would hurt him with it, and that would end it.
Wasn't that why he had agreed to this in the first place - to prove to Isaac why loving him was a horrible, naive idea? It's a lesson he's taught people in the past; if he's honest, he's always rather enjoyed the payoff, in some sadistic way or another. Why, then, isn't he putting a stop to this? It's been almost five months; he could end it any time he chooses. So why doesn't he? It would be so easy...
He closes his eyes, tensing up sharply again at the realization that he doesn't want to.
He can't explain what happens in his head then, outside of the fact that it's intense and deeply unpleasant; he tries to push it away for now, busying himself with loosening his stance a bit where he's gone rigid and nuzzling into Isaac's shoulder as he does so. Nothing to worry about; nothing at all.]
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Wasn't that why he had agreed to this in the first place - to prove to Isaac why loving him was a horrible, naive idea? It's a lesson he's taught people in the past; if he's honest, he's always rather enjoyed the payoff, in some sadistic way or another. Why, then, isn't he putting a stop to this? It's been almost five months; he could end it any time he chooses. So why doesn't he? It would be so easy...
He closes his eyes, tensing up sharply again at the realization that he doesn't want to.
He can't explain what happens in his head then, outside of the fact that it's intense and deeply unpleasant; he tries to push it away for now, busying himself with loosening his stance a bit where he's gone rigid and nuzzling into Isaac's shoulder as he does so. Nothing to worry about; nothing at all.]
You don't have to thank me for it, Isaac.