IC CONTACT - ROUTE 29

[glaciates]

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[glaciates]

What made you decide to give me something then? If you don't mind me asking.

[fatalissimo]

Because I like you, Beastmaster.

You need another reason?

[glaciates]

No, of course not. That's all the reason you need.

[He's not really sure what to do with this though, not that that's surprising.]

[fatalissimo]

Good!

You've been really [don't say useful don't say useful] helpful, too, so I guess I owe you for that too - but I'd want to give you something even if you hadn't been.

[glaciates]

That's really kind of you. Like I said, I'm not very good at this, but I really do appreciate it.

[fatalissimo]

[...heh.]

That's not something I hear everyday - I'm not exactly known for being a kind person and all.

But it's fine. You're welcome, okay?

[glaciates]

Really? You've been pretty good to me and I'm not exactly an easy person to get along with.

[fatalissimo]

[Wh...]

What do you mean? I haven't had any problems talking to you, and it's not like you're an asshole or anything.

[glaciates]

Well, no, that's not what I meant. I'm not very good at holding a conversation or anything social, really. I'm socially awkward to a point that makes it genuinely hard to communicate with people face-to-face. A lot of our interactions have been through text, so I guess that helps.

[...it feels kind of weird to actually write this out, huh.]

[fatalissimo]

Yeah, I can see where writing it out might be better. Some people have an easier time if they can see what they're going to say before they say it; they can edit it and take out the stuff that isn't what they meant, and make it sound closer to what they did mean.

...I run a lot of writing clubs at school. There's a lot of socially awkward in there.

[glaciates]

Yeah, that's exactly it. It's just really nice to see someone who doesn't react like everyone else. People didn't get it back home.

[fatalissimo]

Good to know someone does, I guess.

I'm really not a nice person most of the time, like I said. But I get where you're coming from.

[glaciates]

Well, you've been good to me and I really appreciate that.

[...please don't tell him this is another example of him reading too much into things and in reality you're like a mini-Kimblee because that would kind of suck.

...A mini-prison-era-Kimblee, not his boyfriend Kimblee-- look just don't be a raging douche and refuse to help him or something.]

[fatalissimo]

Well, I don't see any reason not to be. You've really helped me figure things out.

My situation back home is kind of a mess, you know?

[glaciates]

Yeah, I know what that's like. I'm really glad I could help you out though.

[fatalissimo]

[......]

Maybe I'll tell you about it sometime. Since you've told me about yours.

[glaciates]

You don't have to if you don't want to. I get that some of these things are really difficult to discuss.

[fatalissimo]

...We're fighting something no one back home can know about. It's pretty bad.

Like world-ending bad.

[glaciates]

Why can't they know about it? Is it something they won't - or can't - believe?

[fatalissimo]

Yeah.

That, and the threat is too powerful - it's everywhere already. They just don't realize it.

[glaciates]

That's the worst part. I doubt our situations are the same, but I know how that feels at least.

[fatalissimo]

Yeah. So now we're all doing some pretty heinous things to keep anything from happening. You have to sacrifice a few people, or maybe a bunch of people, but the payoff is worth it.

That first time we talked, you said something about how you felt guilty about completely destroying a bunch of innocent people. When I got here, I'd just gotten done bombing the shit out of a stronghold protecting a group of people who hadn't done anything wrong.

[glaciates]

I know. I thought that was the only way to take care of the issues. I probably could have found another way if I trusted others enough to tell them about it.

Sacrificing some for the good of everyone is a valid tactic, as unfortunate as it might be. But I definitely understand where you're coming from - considering it a tactic and actually doing it are two entirely different things. It's something I won't ever do again.

[fatalissimo]

That's why I say I'm not a good person, though. I don't feel bad about doing it. They were collateral damage and it sucks to be them, but I don't really feel guilty about it even though I know I probably should.

[glaciates]

Yeah, that's probably something you should feel guilty about, but maybe it's because you're in the middle of fighting this battle? At least, that's what it sounds like.